Thursday, March 31, 2005

Shitty & Fedup!

What's problem with this man in my house?
I wonder he is Teo or "Lai"... every little things that goes wrong he can simply put the blame on his wife and daughters... unfair!!! So what we are women, he is totally bias and unreasonable!
being helpful , to him is "unwillingness" FINE!
Such a hypocrite, smile and joke and tell tall takes with other people, but come home, he put on a shitty face as if everyone at home owes him a living!
for the 1st time in my entire life I have hear of foolscape paper are not supposed to be torn out from the pad. Great I was been scolded and screamed at for that. And blamed for causing his bad times..... Irrational freak...steam like a kettle as and when he likes?

Saturday, March 26, 2005

Sweet Toothie

Cook prawn mee at home... everybody likes it :)
Glad that is a long weekend, spend time with baby...
watched Miss Cong. 2 at GV10.. was hilarious.. but part 1 is nicer.
Saturday, went to terminate that EXTRA line at starhub and
sis went M1 to terminate her line as well. Lunch at Meridien Kopitiam.
yucks the bah kut teh's so salty and diluted.. Walked to PS and shop for JC b'dae pressie.
bought ice-cream , was stopped by the security at Carrefour... legs aching, wrong shoes... bought a bottle of candy for her, and a pair of sandals for myself. Saw the crew of "yuan lai shi ni", kym ng searching for contestants.. Dinner with baby at Secret Recipe along Chinatown and head to C&C. Had stewed lamb, tiramisu, chicken, ice lemon tea... yummy*
JC invited alot of pple, but the last time ham celebration there even more pple.
anyway didn't really like beer, makes me puke and rash. Only part I enjoy is singing with Baby and the cake... think I have sweet tooth, keep craving for cakes, desserts, ice-creams..etc

Sunday, March 20, 2005

If Life can be reformat like a PC

I just wonder what kind of life is others leading? Is it like mine? feeling lost and empty.
If life can be reformatted just like the pc.. feeling depressed.

Saturday, March 19, 2005

Self Discovery Quizzes..

Your Power Color Is Gold
You're dependable and hard working. You never miss a deadline - and you're never late. You have a clear sense of right and wrong. You're very detail oriented. You get frustrated when your friends are sloppy - or when they don't follow through. You're on top of things, and you wish that everyone else was! ( Try it: What is your Power Colour ? )

Your Inner Muse is Melpomene

You are most like this muse of tragedy. While you aren't depressed, you don't shy away from sadness. Although you do tend to be gloomy, you have a sensitive side. And this sensitive side helps inspire and help others ( Take This Quiz: What Muse Are You? )

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

Summary of 1-mth *Classroom Experience*

Initial week:
feel really lost coz the form teacher on leave just give me her handbooks and said that 1 mth have to give them 2 compo, try to cover as much as possible.. I have to figure out what to do with the class of monkeys.. P keep walking pass the class discreetly, scary leh.
Sobs, how come no break time for me? any free time I have they will slot other relief class for me?? Hungry , hungry... havent been to the canteen before leh.
their "england" really can't make it,
2nd week:
Finally got a chance to grab something from the canteen, what a disappointment... they food sux... and eating halfway my dearest monitoress came to say that the time-table messed up , it my lesson! gosh!
Make a new friend, we are both new to the school.Everyone seems to be busy with the anniversary event, except the 2 of us...so blurr duno whether to attend their meeing or not... Think I am like a loan-shark, chasing after money and homework.
Sighz, I broke the gigantic ruler, need to cool down *lol*..simply can't stand these monkeys...
3rd week:
Drama everyday since the very 1st day of school, most absurd things ever will happen in my class.. why? they need attention? (steal money, fight in class, reason out with me when I punish, "asthma attack kid" sent to hospital, crying to go home)...
Finally I got a way to keep them quiet. Notices that P is watching from the opposite class...*sighz* stress leh, can u stop watching? I wonder if interesting and innovative teaching methods can be use in this class?
4th week:
P came to see me, talked to me about the meet parent session and report card procedures.. what?! ME? after the session my jaw drop and stare blank for a second. I'm bearly there for 3 weeks lor, just managed to remember their names, now what? meet parents? stressed..
Didn't even tell me there's a class test.. have to rush the test papers for them, from scratch coz their syllabus is so different from the rest of the class. Called the teacher in-charge for advise, she just said "just compile a test from what u have covered" (-.-") .
finally managed to compile test papers for all the subjects, guess they are playing tricks on me huh? the photocopying machine suddenly need card? they didn't issue me any access card loh, tmr I need to give them test leh *Hello!* liao-lui, go to chongpang and print with my own money.. 30pcs * 3 subjects ...pocket burnt! Skipped the contact time coz I really feel so tired, need to zzz.. who knows on the way home, buddy smsed me "P ask who is not around leh? think she noticed u r not ard.." sheesh!

Sunday, March 6, 2005

My life: Feeling lost...

My mind is really blank right now.
Dun feel like talking...maybe it's PMS.

  1. I need an income
    -> rejected from interviews
  2. I need attention
    -> making me a demanding lover
    -> weekend lover is not my cup of tea
    -> IM chat is not my type
    -> cold as steel..
    -> puffy eyes..runny nose, broken heart
  3. Pre-requisite of job openings (experience)
    -> where is my JOB
  4. What keeps a relationship going ?
    -> passion? dreams? love? understanding? goals?
    -> giving friends good advices, but I flopped my own
    -> Should I free her from my "nonsensical" behaviour
    -> freaking out...
  5. Pain everywhere
    -> is it really physically or psychologically?
    -> migraine
    -> shoulders and backache
    -> chest pain
    -> stomach cramp
    -> sleepless nights
    -> no appititte
    -> keep eating ice-cream and smoke
    -> temperamental
  6. Where my path is leading me to?
    -> I REALLY FEEL LOST !
  7. Where to seek help?
    -> would anybody around me bother at all?
  8. What can I do next?
    -> I feel like I am in a fix now
    -> emotionless, expressionless, speechless
    -> demoralised
    -> low-esteem
    -> down