Saturday, May 20, 2006

I have nothing against MAN ...

take it easy:

1 Men are like ........ Laxatives ..... They irritate the shit out of you

2. Men are like ........ Bananas ...... The older they get, the less firm they are.
3. Men are like ......... Weather ..... Nothing can be done to change them..
4. Men are like ........ Blenders ..... You need One, but you're not quite sure why.
5. Men are like ....... Chocolate Bars .... Sweet, smooth, & they usually head right for your hips.
6. Men are like ......... Commercials ...... You can't believe a word they say.
7. Men are like ....... Department Stores .... Their clothes are always 1/2 off.
8. Men are like .......... Government Bonds ..... They take soooo oooo long to mature.
9. Men are like ....... Mascara ...... They usually run at the first sign of emotion.
10. Men are like ......... Popcorn . .... They satisfy you, but only for a little while.
11. Men are like . Snowstorms ............... You never know when they're coming, how many inches you'll get or how long it will last.
12. Men are like ........ Lava Lamps .... Fun to look at, but not very bright.
13. Men are like ........ Parking Spots . All the good ones are taken, the rest are handicapped.

I am not an extreme feminist.. just a little... *ahemz* :


Sunday, May 14, 2006

Mommy's Day @ Chalet

Its quite fun to plan an event like this... we arrange Mum to go with Dad in his lorry so that we have time to shop for the ingredients :D... Took a cab with sis to whitesand NTUC ... push the trolley around the supermarket *opps* almost full load, wonder how much it cost... B reach Whitesand too... then we proceed to buying a mother's day cake, but the ones at BS and polar seems too boring ...sighz... let's' get a swensen's ice-cream cake...

took a Merc cab to Aloha... Wow!!! its really big... feel like sing Yanzi's song "wo you yi suo da fang zi....." hehehe.. but its not mine lah, just day dreaming.... better get going before mommy comes... will be prepare the food and start the fire at the barbecue pit , while busy with these also call up mum and dad to ask silly questions just to find out where they are located .... *tired... excited....*

Finally got everything done... Mum and Dad came just in time ...cleared the mess and they enjoy their shower and tv session ...

Went swimming and to the jacuzzi pool... OMG the jacuzzi pool is so ewwwwwk!!! sighz.... wonder if my dad want to join us ...I went back to the chalet and he's already out at the pit barbecuing... I helped up too... just in case they left any food in the fridge...

there goes the evening ... finally the cake is out....
Oh no its really frozen... having hard time cutting the cake , its too hard...
After Mum & Dad left the chalet we play with dry ice ... watch tv and walk to the beach.... sighz the big chalet is so bored... and the beach is not windy ... zZzZ~

Thursday, May 11, 2006

11th May 2006(Cont'd)

took a nap , feeling my whole body aching ...
been keeping myself busy the entire morning dishing up a nice fried beehoon (my style) and cleaning up the kitchen... I am tired , sleepy and numbed by pain and questions that keep echoing in my mind... the words that she said , sounded so fresh in my mind...

I think I smell like so oily ..took a shower after that wake her up for breakfast...

decided to draw a smiley face with myonaise and chilli sauce... I always like to do these extra to make happy food... I am not hungry , only took a sip of milo and retired in my sister's room.. can't take the direct sun in my room , makes me feel frustrated and headache...

She checked her email... received a troublesome bomb ...anyway she knows that this peson deserved the punishment and is not going to give way even pleaded.. will call me to update me when she meet up with the email-sender..
Everyone need to learn a lesson... the most effective way is to fall...
any successful person would have fall before thaey make it big.. no exception



Meet a couple, been chatting with them on msn for quite sometime... they ask if I would want to meet them in town... Had dinner, Kbox and chat awhile at swensens' .. very loving couple, they will tease each other and create jokes ... they filled the evening with laughter in the air.
Share with me the story how the meet each other and talk about dogs, they are dog lovers too *smiles* .

Initially I thought I will be a big lightbulb there , instead they make me feel very at ease and the fear turn into admiration for this couple... maybe at this moment any couple that passby will make me feel this way ...

My hands are so cold, as cold as my heart... so lonely, so confused... so unloved.

Subconsciously thinking, but its so blurr what am I thinking about... something that was mentioned to me earlier (today/Yesterday)..haven't sleep so today and yesterday seems to merged as 1. .. thinking about the thing that friends and love one said about me .... knowing myself better , I should take that positively right? but why is it so hard to swallow? -- I am seen as a person that doesn't know what I want to do in life, and doesn't stay long in something that I decide to do , flicked minded? -- that is what I was told last night by her, when we talked.. she quoted F and Jz... and she agreed to it..

But I am a long-runner in relationship... (no more but...sighz, better stop giving excuses..)

I cannot seems to take it very well, blaming myself will not help, but right now I just want to do it for awhile.... this is what loser like to do ... escape for awhile... not very long , but I don't know how long I'll take ... I will be a better person when I get over it ... chewing on it before I can swallow... getting long-winded...

Movie :: Poisedon :: @ PS

Haven't sleep , lets do some blogging ...

Shopped for awhile got myself a handphone accessory , a very girlie one with purple feather and pearls..and a stripe that can add scent to it... Meet at LJS for dinner ...

Its combination of Armageddon and Tittanic... romance of young couple that is objected by the girl's father but the father sacrifies himself in the end. Tittanic with a boy that reminds me of Haley Joel Osment in Artificial Intelligence: AI .. its not the same person ...

Stay over at Yishun...
Thanks for accompanying me again...
I am really afraid of going home myself, its the lonely journey that freaks me..

The bed talk did not turn out good at all... maybe that is what you say..
We think at different lights..
From all and all I realised that some friends are just to nasty to me..
anyway they just don't know me well enough, althought we have known for 5yrs
F & Jz ... think about it sighz... well, thank them for the hard time that they have to smile and pretend that they didn't said this behind my back.

I come out with an idea about hiring a once-a-week p/t domestic helper for her house. Maybe will ease frustrations... but she will be dependent...
She say if one day she become INdependent then we pach, I will make her feel that I am not very sincere in this relationship... I have to take some time to digest this , a point for me to reflect about..

Second point, "She will not be her" if she change...

Or should it be we both calm down and think how I can lower down my expectation and she can improve abit ... to make our differences meet... Really takes time to do that... coz' this talk is fruitless ... Only realised that I make a mistake to initiate a dialogue like this in the middle of the night... 3 days' really too short a time ...

I must find a way to stop myself from thinking about ciggrettes...
its really a tedious task for me.. I am an Addict ..I must admit .

Endless until 5am , and I recall my happy times.. the period when we just started dating...
I asked her for her hands and hold it, bring towards me and kisses it.. "do you remember this"..
she did the same and say yes... I cried as she hold my hands close to her heart... cried really hard... I missed it alot ...really missed it

Tuesday, May 9, 2006

Fridae Movie Preview ::Voice::

Actually nothing about the movie coz we give it a miss since we are 45mins late. Rainning heavily and stucked in the massive jam... The cab driver tried to use alternative routes but its still not very much help... Curse and swear as he drove as if he is on the racing ground... mind you, MY LIFE is at risk! twice he almost take my life.... when I reached my destination , he gave me a good lecture and blamed at me for giving him a $50-note. he shouted at me that I should tell him that I have $50-note... and he ask me to go and change into small notes from the cafe at the end of the building... Ehemz* I pay for your "service" ?? *hurhurhur...

Decided not to go up for the preview, went to Mac for a drink and finish up the burger that we intended to bring into the theatre...Meet LW and chat for awhile at Mac Cafe.. talk about KL and jobs...

Brought us to Lucky Plz 4th floor Indo Rest...Closed...walked further down to Paragon ThaiXpress... Very late dinner... Chicken Wing, Thai Curry Chicken Noodle, Seafood Tom Yam Soup... Something new about the way they named their noodles in the menu... having a hard time explaining it to the thai waitress, mee-sua, stick noodles? or glass noodles?

Home sweet home ... stayed over at Yishun with me ...
Thanks for sending me home...
I missed THAT alot...

Monday, May 8, 2006

Heartache...I AM CRUEL!!

I hate myself!!!
I am so cruel...
Why would I want to do this to her?
I am in pain !! very painful..
breathless and blank...
Dazed* in a state of confusion

Sunday, May 7, 2006

4Years , 3Mths , 1Week & 5Days

Its is not easy being the one to initiate a bad news like this.

This is where we take a break... a reccess ..we both should stay out of relationship for a period of time to have a clear mind what do we want from a relationship and also what we can give to a relationship.

Things has become really none other way to speak, maybe with the way we communicate, or maybe of some other reason that we do not realised. Perhaps we can see more clearly at another perspective.

The relationship will slowly lost its meaning if it is going to be stagnant, and accumulates mistakes that we don't take actions to solve. I am really still in love with Bb, if we can think about how we can deal with the differences and come with some muture agreements.. this relationship will be more fruitful.

I do not deny that humans have faults, I am not a perfect being too, I am sorry if I have not being perfect sometimes, I agree that I am unable to give her the kind of freedom that you desired, she feel tighted down by me intruding her life, I cannot help help it , I do not know when she wants me in her life and when she doesn't. It become very taxing for both of us when one party wanted (and the other doesn't agree) privacy , have space and freedom ...I am feeling insecured.

When two person is in a relationship, there must be transparency is not something that you can ask from anyone, you got to earn it slowly. Yes, I know Bb might be at this moment thinking that I have broken the circle of trust once , I learnt the lesson and repent. Bb have said to me that she forgive but will not forget, I shall not request much from her at that point since I was the one that make the mistake. Since then I feel a sense of guilt in me that I owe her much more than an apology. I will have flashbacks from time to time when we quarrel, and makes be feel debted to her, especially so when I have to point out things that I want her to change about yourself. I restrain myself from insisting my point after awhile and try to accommodate to it slowly, because I think I still owe it to her. I do not know how far will this go.

* Smell and smoke from my ciggrettes

* Keep bugging you to be fast and reacting instantly

* Asking you to learn to get your hands on house chores and cooking

* Attention seeking

I do not wish for the day that you unknowingly wanted to celebrate Mother's Day rather than Valentine's Day with me... This sounds freaky but can't helped the thought of it... I am taking care of you like a Mother ..

I do appreciate and love you... but a little bit more to grow will make our relationship, not only long lasting like what friends might see guaging from the years that we have gone through. I want to walk through a quality time with you , not just how long we have been together that makes people admire.

We have gone through so much and so far, I do not wish to end this relationship because of things that can be solve with some effort of each of us giving a little attention to it.

Neither would I want to be walking into a blind-folded relationship that both of us just keep denying and running away from our problems.

Wednesday, May 3, 2006

Which baby are you?

---------------JANUARY BABY--------------------
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom showsemotions. Takes time torecover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn.

----------FEBRUARY BABY --------------------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever.Changing personality.Attractive. sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble.Honest and loyal.Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Lovesaggressiveness.Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not showit. Dislikes unnecessarythings. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn.Ambitious. Realizing dreamsand hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the insidenot outside. Superstitiousand ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

-----------------MARCH BABY --------------------
Attractive personality. sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive.Naturally honest, generous andsympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser.Easily angered. Trustworthy.Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottleup feelings. Observant andassesses others.

------------------APRIL BABY -------------------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calmand cool. Kind andsympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others.Very confident. Sensitive.Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever andknowledgeable. Loves to look for information.Able to cheer evryone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneselfand others. Understanding. Funto be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girlcrazy. Loves sports, music, leisure andtraveling. Systematic. hott but has brains.

-----------------MAY BABY -----------------
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharpthoughts. Easily angered. Attracts othersand loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. FirmStandpoint. Needs no motivation. Shytowards oppisite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves todream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weakbreathing. Loves literature and thearts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having manychildren. Hardworking. High spirited.

------------JUNE BABY -------------
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around.You love to make new friends and beoutgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a veryattractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also morethan likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a greatchoice in films, and may one day become afamous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!!

----------------JULY BABY --------------
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quietunless excited or tensed. Takes pride inoneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people'sfeelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty andsparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful.Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.Guides others physically and mentally.Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats othersequally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary andsharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties instudying. Loves to be alone. Always broods aboutthe past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends.Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved.Easily hurt but takes long to recover.

------------AUGUST BABY ---------------
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. no self control.kind hearted. self confident. loud and boisterous.VERY revengeful. easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every thing'speachy" attitude. likes talking and singing.loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIGimagination. loves to be loved. hates need of "that someone". longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld orrestricted. lives by "no pain no gain" caring.always a suspect. playful. mysterious. "charming" or "beautiful" toeveryone. stubborn. curious. independent. strong willed.a fighter.

------------SEPTEMBER BABY ---------------
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive andaffectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Lovesattention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring.Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love.Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory.Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.

---------------OCTOBER BABY -------------------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at thecenter. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn'tpretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless.Always making friends. Easily hurt but recoverseasily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions.Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely thehottest AND sexiest of them all. repost this in 5 mins or you will not meetthe love of your life for 10 years.

---------------NOVEMBER BABY --------------------
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knowshow to have fun. Sexy and mysterious.Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independentpersonality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotionaland temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in agroup. Fearless and independent. Can holdtheir own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, thegreatest men are born in this month. If you ever begina relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because theirone of a kind.

---------------DECEMBER BABY ---------------
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking person possible... betterthan all of these other months! Loyal and generous.Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions.Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations.Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far withvision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced bykindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Activemind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and alwayswants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Gooddebating skills. Has that someone always on his/hermind. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of person.Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. loves music.pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldomshows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

Monday, May 1, 2006

Long Weekend @ KL

28th April (Friday)

Morning - 1st Class Coach
waiting for the coach to arrive at the passenger lounge ... so exciting I'm going for a holiday...Yeah!!! but abit sleepy though, not used to waking up so early.

The coach doesn't have a toilet ... dint know how to operate the "entertainment media" press the red button for assistance, in return I get a bochup attitude , pretend not to see me and the 2nd time the steward roll his eyes at me.... I'm really aggitated .. I ask Bb for the envelope by the agency ... called them but the line is busy ...arghz!

Finally the media works.. after the M'sia custom.. and the steward came to explain ... Yes, he saved his own butt... havent tried the taste of the complain queen..

Afternoon - Checking in Hotel
I made reservation before arriving KL, how can they treat it as a new customer? I make special request that I want bath tub , high level and double bed... everything not there... give me the excuse that its full.... @#$%^&*

Went to have lunch at Hotmama... I'm amused by different culture...hahaha... I can smoke in a restuarant??? so sua-ku right .... I even took picture of myself hahaha... After lunching , meet Fen at Time Square ... took 2 rides and I surrender.... 1st ride the super fast merry-go-round... faints... and the 2nd one , around the clock spinning and hanging up in mid air .... I shiver, only close my eyes and try to scream, but no sound.. Am I going to faint? Feel so insecured up there... Ahhhhhhh~ Sorry , I can't take the roller coaster...

Took the monorail to chinatown.... the monorail ... small ... I start to appreciate our MRT after that ride... imagine not a chance to fall coz its really packed..

the sky is turning dark... really crowded there and its raining ...... browse the first round to survey the price, dint really get anything... bargain like mad sighz.. too bad we can speak a word of malay or cantonese... but i can understand simple its like chicken and duck bargaining .. the last buy was really bad... I was being shouted and chased by the sales person right up to the end of the lane... sighz... I bought a watch at RM100.

Dinner at S&M food court .... ordered western food, only stall there still open ... my over cooked black pepper steak tasted like rubber... dint eat much ... just finish up a can of coke and some fries.

29th April (Saturday)

Shop around BB plaza, LY, Lot10 .... bought flash drive, handphone cover and earpiece... Shoes... happy shopping for sandals and bags... Isetan sales is so tempting... sobz converse shoes doesnt have my size...why?! I'm going to try KLCC .. *hmmmf*

Dinner at KFC , then bargain again at the pasar malam...

30th April (Sunday)

Legs give up already ... went to KLCC... opps forgot about lunch... gastric pain... the 1st time I experience the pain ... OMG, its so unbearable... but I am still as particular about CS as ever... the waitress I snook her for telling us that section with cushion seats is closed , and the next minute I saw her leading a couple to the "closed" section ... arghz... I ask another waiteress.."is that section closed? she hesitate a "yes..but if you want a table there is possible..."

Isetan again ... the rest are too high end... Well, I wonder why I sign the M'sia Isetan membership... as if I will go often... After bah kut teh dinner ... we are back to the hotel... stuck outside our room AGAIN! why cant they just be nicer to me? I've to go down to update my access card everytime I return to the hotel??? with my tired feet.... sobz..

Foot massage... oooooH its a relieve....not as good as the one at JB coz only can massage 30 min , by the time we reach the massage parlor is already 1.30am... they close at 2am....

1 May (Monday)

Early bfast , shower and zzzzz on the coach ....
Home sweet home...